Thank you! I forgot to mention in my post (and will add in a bit) that I'm 5'6"...
No, I don't think I felt like I was ~this~ small because I haven't been this size since college. (Mom pulled out one of my semi-formal dresses from 1993 and it fits better now than it did 20 years ago! But I could definitely see vanity sizing in action since I'm wearing size 10 jeans today and that dress is a 14.) So, I don't know... I think my brain got stuck somewhere in the 215-230 range because I remember that as my lowest weight range since I've been in Virginia even though I hadn't been even 230 since 2002. I could turn and pose different ways in the mirror and never really "see" what my body looked like. Photos, though... oof, photos were my bane.
In the early months of my post-surgery weight loss, when I looked at myself in the mirror or pictures, I thought, "Oh! I look so skinny!" Now that I've bottomed out, I look at myself and think, "Oof, I'm so fat!" I realize that my reaction is totally f*cked up and I try not being the skinny friend who complains about her size around larger friends, but sometimes I slip. I don't know how to get around that frame of mind just yet.
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No, I don't think I felt like I was ~this~ small because I haven't been this size since college. (Mom pulled out one of my semi-formal dresses from 1993 and it fits better now than it did 20 years ago! But I could definitely see vanity sizing in action since I'm wearing size 10 jeans today and that dress is a 14.) So, I don't know... I think my brain got stuck somewhere in the 215-230 range because I remember that as my lowest weight range since I've been in Virginia even though I hadn't been even 230 since 2002. I could turn and pose different ways in the mirror and never really "see" what my body looked like. Photos, though... oof, photos were my bane.
In the early months of my post-surgery weight loss, when I looked at myself in the mirror or pictures, I thought, "Oh! I look so skinny!" Now that I've bottomed out, I look at myself and think, "Oof, I'm so fat!" I realize that my reaction is totally f*cked up and I try not being the skinny friend who complains about her size around larger friends, but sometimes I slip. I don't know how to get around that frame of mind just yet.